Erdem Taşdelen



5-channel video installation
48' 23" / 43' 11" / 55' 54" / 56' 06" / 60' 29"

For this project, I went to five therapy sessions with a psychotherapist over the course of two months to resolve my anxieties about my career and being an artist in general. I asked: What if I’m not creative enough? What would happen to me if I stopped being an artist? What satisfaction do I get from exposing myself? Why do I envy more successful artists? Will I be happy if I am successful? Of what consequence is my work to others?

This work was produced with the support of ARTER specifically for an exhibition titled Envy, Enmity, Embarrassment curated by Emre Baykal. Although the presence of the cameras during the sessions necessitated a certain amount of self-editing, the videos are all shown in their entirety, which inevitably puts me in a vulnerable position and investigates whether a work of art can be viewed separately from its creator’s personality.

Please scroll to the bottom of the page to watch one of the sessions.

Installation views: Envy, Enmity, Embarrassment, ARTER, Istanbul, 2013. Photos by Murat Germen.